I was looking through the deity entries and ran across this one on Atreia. I find myself a bit confused between the mechanics and description. I would love to hear other thoughts.
From the descriptive text calls out "he cannot hear or grant power to his followers from his prison". However, the entry goes on to list allowed follower alignments, extra cleric spells, domains, a healing font, etc.
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While he seems like a very interesting deity as far as flavor goes, why include the mechanics for clerics if he can't have clerics?
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Has anyone used him with your characters? How did you handle this conflict?

(I apologize for grammar errors, English isn't my first language. Also, this is a dump account, 'cause this report is very intimate for me to post in my official one).
For the last few months I've been questioning myself very intensely, and I believe it has everything to do with my relationship with a (girl) friend.
But first, I'll introduce myself.
It may sounds awkward, but I had a very hard time approaching girls, and even now I struggle with this. My sister, otherwise, easily made friends with them, which I always got jealous about. For years, my only friends were she and my cousin. My cousin and her mother forced me to get involved with boys very early — For example, I had my first kiss with an 24yo man, when I was only 12yo, due to their pressure — and I was often left behind even by my sister because her and my cousin would be too busy with boys. I ended up being used to dealing with them, which led to me having dated a lot of guys; because since I never could tell if I was in love with one, I would date anyone who was in love with me and I saw some advantage in being with, 'cause my sexuality was, basically, only responding to theirs. As I grew up, I started to have standards, which helped me to understand the boys who would only be my friends and the ones I could "give a try". However, I would often increase the list, and looking back then, it did seems like I was subconsciously making a "Frankenstein" to match my ideal of a partner.
I never considered myself straight. I used to classify myself as "bissexual", because I sure was attracted to girls but I still needed to find out about boys. I stated this when I was a child (probably 7yo) and I was getting strong physical reactions to my sister and mother's body. My family wasn't so religious, still, they never let me properly have guy friends (even the ones from my own family), 'cause my father's side of the family (the one I grew up with) didn't believe in this kind of relationship between the opposite sex. My mother's side, otherwise, wasn't that strict, but I still never got interested or curious about boys. I would say I was mostly sexually scared, even disgusted of them, if not only indifferent by their existence. Nevertheless, since I knew I lusted for girl's body and sometimes I was quite obvious about that, I got repressed several times by my family, to the point of me deciding to minimize my own contact with women and focus on acting "straight". That's when my research started. Of course, I initially struggled a lot, 'cause I was mostly aversive of men; but, as soon as I got comfortable with one, I was willing to "give them a try". The thought of being intimate with men always got me anxious, but actually perfoming "attraction" and touching them gave me a lot of panic attacks. It took years to reach PIV. My first time with a man had the objective to prove myself I could overcome my fear, and I did — I wasn't afraid of sex anymore. Since sex no longer was a barrier to me, I felt confident to expand my social life in order to higher my standards and find my perfect match. The difference is that now I would reasearch for ways to make sex enjoyable for me too. I never got pleasure from sex unless I gave it to myself — which was pretty much masturbating. But masturbating was better 'cause I didn't got to worry about my partner's desires or deal with looking at them. Anyway, from my hunt for something I didn't know what exaclty was, I found her.
There's this girl I was really close of since I was 17yo (I'm 20yo). I'll call her "S". I never got rid of my desire to be close-friends with women, but I didn't know how to do so. I used to stalk my boyfriends/guys friends just to see the beautiful women they knew. I was curious about them, and that's how I met "S". She was the first woman who expressed desire to be friends in real life with me, and so we became. When I first met her, I brought my sister and we hanged out in "S" boyfriend's house. I think it was the first time I was so physically affectionate with a woman, and it was a mix of comfort and fascination for me. After that day, I would often travel with "S" and her man, and though I had a lot of fun with them, he actually didn't like me that much (later, she told me it was 'cause he was suspicious about us). Sometimes, when I was with them, I felt so heartbroken and loveless I would run away to a dude's house just to cry and be held, although it never really made me feel less lonely. Anyway, they broke up, 'cause the guy sucked, and this devastated me, for it became really difficult to see "S". She was always busy searching for a new guy to date, but as soon as she found one, we started hanging out again. Unfortunately, since I knew she was very jealous of her boyfriends, I returned with my ex and introduced him to "S"s new guy, and they became really close friends (which also meant I likely would see her more often). I liked "S"'s boyfriend because, unlike her ex, he was fine with me being affectionate with her. Our emotional bond grew even stronger in her new relationship, and so did my craving for her warmth. But the problems started when "S" cheated her boyfriend, and me and my boyfriend intervened — huge mistake. I did everything I could for them to stay together, and they did, but things changed. Both of them started to withdraw from me, my relationship was terrible and my social life was falling apart. When I broke up with my boyfriend, "S"s boyfriend ostracized me from everything, and I never saw her again. A few months later, I (once again) returned to my ex, and "S"s boyfriend hated it, but he was tolerating. They still didn't want to see me, and never invited me to hang out with them. It was only frustating to me because we had the same friends, and they were always hanging out with "S" and her boyfriend. I was lonely and upset, and one day, I argued with "S" due to a jealous tantrum I had. I became so upset with her interacting more with my boyfriend than me that I ended up acting rude and hurting her. Even back then I was deeply ashamed for my attitude, and the worst part is that I couldn't explain my feelings to any of them, since neither I understood myself. After this episode, she quitted my Discord server in the very same moment of some other friends of mine, which later I found out it was her boyfriend's idea while they were hanging out. When I confronted her, she said that it was just a bad coincidence and it had nothing to do with me or what happened — and I knew she lied.
It was only me and my boyfriend now. He tried really hard to reconcile me with my others friends, and he succeeded. But, something felt different. I started to notice I would feel the same way with him as I felt with my other friends. I initially thought it might be 'cause I was assexual — a bet I made earlier, at 13yo — which I told him, but I still craved intimacy and touch so I was willing to continue having sex. However, my mind was restless, I was always thinking about "S" and sometimes I would break down and cry for hours, just wanting to be held by her. As time passed and the tempest calmed, this memory started to hurt less, but still left me with a lot of questions: was I in love with "S"? What do I feel for men? Is my "Frankenstein", actually, a woman?

Hi all,
TL;DR I had always suspected that my husband cheated on me with one of his exes during the first month of our relationship years ago but he always denied which made me feel like a was crazy. He finally admitted it last year and now i can't help but resent him a little and worry he will do it again.
My husband and I have been married 4 years but started dating back in Oct 2015 and he asked me to be his girlfriend in december of that year. Even before we were officially dating, he always made clear that he was friends with some of his exes and he will skype with them every weekend which I was fine with because it was too early and didn't love him yet and it was just too early. That december, one of his exes was in town for the holidays and i met her (I was his girlfriend by then), i always had a bad feeling about her, like she still had feelings for him and I just didn't trust her. I knew they met without me and he even took her to his mom's house because they knew each other from before and they were friends. This were our first holidays as a couple and he was giving her way too much attention,. Anyway, that Jan 1st, I saw them cuddling in the couch trying to sleep, there was another two poeple with them kn the couch and I was in the floor with other two girlfriend and they told me that was weird and we all left, he tried to stopped me but I still left because i was too angry and embarrassed. We met they day after to talk and he denied having feelings for her, cheating, he said it was all on my head, he said I agreed to him being friends with his exes so i was left feeling like I was a crazy jealous person so we moved on. Years went by, and our relationship grew stronger, deeper and he eventually stopped talking with her because he knew it bothered me. He did see her a couple of time in 2016 and one last time for lunch in 2019 (one month after our wedding) All this years, occasionally we would discuss about our relationship, our past relationships, boundaries, etc all pretty healthy stuff and he always denied having ever cheated. Last year we were both high and I asked him again out of the blue, this time he said yes which shocked me!! and asked with who? and he said you know with who! and I said, when? he said when you thought I did, december 2015! i asked him if more that once and he said yes like 3 times during her visit but said those were the only times and that it was the worst mistake of his life and that he felt horrible all these years lying about it. He said he denied it all these years because he was scared to death of losing me. He cried in the floor like a baby asking me to forgive him, i did because it was a long ago and i know he loves, he took care of my during my cancer and still does, our marriage is truly wonderful, we barely fight, we spend a lot of time together, however I still think about this and hunts me because of that saying, once a cheater, always a cheater? Do you believe this is true? he is truly has been the best husband and super supportive of me all this years, is just this one lie that I can't get out of my mind and the fear that maybe one day, even if its 15 years from now, he will do it again. Also, i haven't told anyone so it feels like a carry this big secret with me and all of our friends and family see us as this perfect married couple. Thank you for reading!

I feel really bad that I've gotten more opportunities in life than my older sibling's.
For context my older two half siblings are more than 20 years older than me. They did not get as many opportunities as I have been lucky to get. One of them was able to work their way up to be successful and has a great family, we don't have a close relationship but they're still my sibling and I love them, and my other sibling doesn't have the best life after a lot of health issues. I get along with that one really well. However, I constantly think and feel guilty that I have had more opportunities than they did. My parents pulled themselves up from the ground and after I was about 10 they were finally able to give us more opportunities. When my siblings were growing up they didn't get anything close to what I have been lucky to have. I feel so guilty when they ask me how it's going for me because I know deep down they never had the chance I do.
I'm sorry for all of the rambling, I just honestly don't know what else to say. I feel bad for my opportunities but at the same time I wouldn't trade them for the world. I've been given so much and I've had to work for a lot of what I have too. I know I couldn't have helped them as I didn't even exist when they were growing up. I kind of feel like I'm not close to the one sibling because I do have what I do.
Again sorry for the rambling I just had to get that off my chest

Hi i(20F) is in a relationship with my fiancé(22M) for 3 years.I just need some advice on my situation, throughout our relationship we were good you know normal things until things started to slowly revel themselves or just catching things on his phones to kinks he has or porn addiction or sex addiction. I am very vanilla i never really did anything like that just regular stuff so this is hard on me trying his kinks out with him but it always seems like its never enough for him and he said thats what are kinks for u never get satisfied but it’s just hard for me like i know from a young age he was exposed to this and i want to help him but be there for him . I just dont know what to do at this point its driving me nuts and ik i dont know how he feels in his shoes and he doesnt know mine. But what should i do i love him hes the love of my life i never loved somebody so much like i do to him but sometimes i feel bad he wont be able to live the kink or the life he wants cause of me :/

So, this is a long story.
I grew up in a third world country that is current ruled by a socialist-communist dictator, so it is very much not a good place to be in.
My younger brother (by 5 years) and I grew up with our mom and dad in said country. We got along well and mostly depended on our mother for emotional needs as our dad was mostly away for work, but when he was home the environment was tense. He's always been volatile and would get upset over everything. I remember him yelling at my mother ever since I was young, and saw him hit her once. My mother threatened to leave after that and he didn't do it again, that I know of, but the yelling continued.
He started fighting with me when I was entering my teens. At first my mother would try to mediate, but our fights were enormous. I would challenge him a lot and he wouldn't know how to react, often saying "this is my house" "don't talk back at me" and when he was really losing am argument, he would threaten things like "say that again and I will smack you" which he would definitely follow through with. Sometimes he wouldn't even give a warning and I would end up hit with a belt, or broomstick, or hanging hook, or whatever was withing reach. Once I apparently annoyed him when he was hanging a picture frame and he smashed it on my head. He thought that was funny and still brings it up as a joke when he sees the picture (that he kept, without the glass).
My mother stopped mediating, I feel, because of how often my father and I would fight. Oftentimes after my dad and I stopped foghting, she would have a conversation with him that ended up with him monologuing/yelling at her. The next day he would tell me it was my fault he had a fight with mom which would trigger another argument between him and me.
This went on and off for years, but as I got older I learned to choose my fights. My brother on the other hand learned by watching me and avoided everything. He would just absentmindedly nod along to whatever dad was asking of him and meekly complied and then did whatever he wanted when dad was distracted.
I should say my brother grew up babied by both my parents and didn't have to do much of the household chores, which mostly fell to me. These were one of the few reasons my father would pick fights with me, because I didn't do them fast enough or I wouldn't drop what I was doing to immediately do the chore he wanted me to do. I always reminded both him and my mother that my brother was also a part of the household, and that by his age I was taking care of many things. They would always reply with, "you're the oldest, so you get to do it" and that was it.
Another point of contingency was money. We were technic middle class but living in a socialist-communist country changes that very quickly. Both my parents worked and they still struggled to cover all the bases. We never lacked anything important. We always had food, electricity, water, a roof, and schools paid. We didn't go on vacation often, but that was ok. However, my father didn't like not having money for other things. There was always something, according to him. Fixing the car (that somehow ALWAYS needed something new fixed), or paying off somebody to fix something in the house, or buying a new whatever for the house, etc. Then I started working and saving money for my own things. My dad was out of the house often and didn't know I started working. I had a laptop, and often gave some tutoring or wrote some papers or anything that a young teen could do to earn a bit of income 15+ years ago. My mom knew I was saving money to buy a handheld console (I never owned one). One day we were out and I let slip in front of my dad that I needed to use my savings to fix my laptop, as it was no longer starting and it was my sources of income. My father blew up and demanded to know why I was "withholding" money from the family for a stupid laptop, when they had bills to pay and things that needed fixing, and said I was selfish and spoiled. My mother defended me on this, which made my father storm off and not talk to us for the rest of the day, only for him to tell me later, in a much sweeter tone, how I was a good daughter and that he would appreciate my help with the house starting now. I'm sad to say I was an idiot and wanted to avoid more fights and just agreed.
Fast forwarding to the event that changed everything. My mother passed away in my mid twenties, my brother was barely 17-18 at the time. She'd been fighting organ failure for months at that point, and the whole family was worn out. I was having constant blowouts with my dad, I tried leaving the house on several occasions because I was having suicidal thoughts, my brother had withdrawn into himself and videogames and my mother was literally telling me to my face that she wanted to die.
Before she passed she tried mending what little relationship I had left with my dad. It sort of happened when she passed. Her death brought us together in our grief. Both my brother and my father turned to me for emotional comfort. I had almost graduated college and was already working so I took over the maintenance of the house and groceries and bills (dad left his job to take care of mom in the last months). So we didn't have time or the energy to fight. Grieving allowed us to bond over mom, talking about her etc. And i sort of had a relationship with my dad again. He'd take care of the house and drive my and my brother around, and I would pay for everything.
Everything came to a head when not a year later my father was seeing someone closer to my age than to his.
I was disgusted to say the least. I fought him tooth and nail on that, as he would often buy her (and her FOUR KIDS) presents with MY money. He would go on trips with her with MY money. So of course I wasn't happy. I also felt he got over my mother (they were together for 23 years) surprisingly fast, and my brother and I were very much still mourning her. My brother didn't care much and would try to calm me down and serve as a wall between me and my dad when my father got fed up with me criticizing his relationship and would attempt to hit me. (Dad never bit my brother).
My brother would say that relationship wouldn't last. I should have listened because it truly didn't. Of course no one would tolerate my dad that long.
So he was alone. And he would complain about it often. He liked (likes) to think of a family member of his. A distant uncle abandoned by his wife and children to die in a dilapidated apartment. He'd say that the children were cruel and thankless to their poor father and would "jokingly" say he hoped we (my brother and I) wouldn't do that to him because he loved us oh so much. Eventually we started fighting like before again.
This is getting way too long so I'll wrap it up.
Eventually I managed to leave the country and now live on the other side of the world. I couldn't bring my brother along with me because I literally arrived with the clothes on my back and a barely-there job opportunity. My brother still lives with our dad and I send money to them every month. My brother is now working to support himself and my dad while he graduates. However, while I lived with them I was the sole focus of my dad's rage. Now it was just him and my brother so he now had a new target.
He's making my brother's life miserable. He interferes in his relationshis, yells at him in front if friends and his girlfriend, undermines him, mocks him, love bombs him, insults him, and the list goes on. Everything he did to me he is now doing to my brother and I feel guilty that I can't get him out faster. I'm saving money to be able to support him here and bring him as soon as he graduates, but even after everything he feels guilty about making my father's fear real. Leaving him alone to his own luck in that third world country when he doesn't even have a job anymore.
I couldn't care less. I barely have a relationship with our father anymore. But it got me thinking. Maybe I'm being too harsh in abandoning him like that. He did provide for us and in his own way, loved us. So, AITA?
Sorry it was so long, but I needed to list the major points. There is more if anybody is interested.

May be long, in rant mode.
I have a reactive dog that hasn't had much public exposure since I got her due to being, well, reactive. She lives her best life in the fenced in yard and hiking and other adventures, but strange dogs and busy public places have always just been too much for her.
I finally found a positive reinforcement, LIMA, behavioral trainer in my area. We've made great progress on our local streets and she wanted to move to Lowe's parking lot and gradually the store as we worked on loosh leash walking and focus in a busier location.
The pup did well, trainer was pleased, but my dog ended up a little overstimulated with the commotion we encountered on the walk back out to car (and potty!). At this point she (the dog) was tired, a little over threshold, and pulling to get to a grass patch (despite having completely pottied her before the session).
As my dog finishes going at this grass patch and starts pulling again towards car, trainer and I are standing and talking about the session, what next week will be, etc when a random old lady walks up. I can just tell by her demeanor and initial question that it isn't going to go well. Long story short, she essentially accuses me of mistreating my dog by pulling on the leash, how she just loves animals and hates to see one mistreated. I gesture to my trainer and tell the lady, "Well good-mannered leash walking is exactly what we're working on. This is my trainer." To which she retorts wryly, "Trainer? For you, or the dog?".
At this point I equally want to tell her off and just go home and cry. My pooch and I have been working really hard and have both been doing great, she just caught a sliver of a moment where my dog was very much done with the situation and hauling butt out. My trainer was much more gracious in deescalation and telling this lady that I wasn't pulling her at all and she appreciates the concern, but we're fine.
Regardless, I left feeling defeated and never wanting to go back out in public with my dog again. Which is the opposite of what we need to be doing (albeit gradually) to desensitize to busy situations. I really hate conflict and was managing my anxiety of the situation as a whole great til this happened, then just felt like a failure. My trainer was flabbergasted and said she'd never had anything like that happen before. Meanwhile I have horrid luck and seem to attract the people that insist on making comments or being generally rude (think generic reactive dog comments).
So my question is, how do ya'll deal with the Nosy Nancys and Wild Karens you encounter while out with your dog? Any go-to responses to shut down their unwelcome negativity or criticisms? I mightve questioned myself if I wasn't working with someone so dedicated to LIMA and positive reinforcement who insisted our work was just fine.
Tldr; Unwelcome criticisms and opinions from strangers while training. How do ya'll deal with this? Any go-to responses to shut down their nosiness?

It's been hard to find some voicelines from Zen and i started looking for a video that compiles every line and fortunately there was one and with OW1 voicelines as well! (pls take the time to comment your fav voiceline in the link, this video was a bit hard to find with only 145 views) so i took the time to timestamp each one, there are a lot that repeat and english isn't my first language there will be a lot of spelling and grammatical errors, feel free to correct me. Well without any further ado here it is:
https://youtu.be/aFU6OveTNQQ
0:05 uh? (idk how to describe it... WHEN DOES HE SAY THIS??¿¿)
0:07 Noise
0:08 Noise
0:10 "Now we have both learned something"
0:13 "I'm grateful for what we have taught each other"
0:17 "I do not punish when one seeks forgiveness"
0:20 "I envy ants for their clarity of purpose"
0:25 "Perhaps i can share your burden?"
0:28 "There is a new sadness in you brother"
0:32 "Yes we wondered how many other omnics were doing the same"
0:38 "Change often comes uninvited what you make of it is up to you"
0:44 "Every challenge is an opportunity to rise"
0:49 "I am happy to serve"
0:51 "Mmm.. interesting"
0:54 "A chance for us all to learn"
0:57 "Experience festivity"
1:00 "Right down the middle and the pitch"
1:04 "Here's a little jin(?) music"
1:06 "That's the ball game"
1:08 "There's no crying in baseball"
1:12 "You're out"
1:14 "He goes down swinging"
1:16 "It goes down swinging"
1:18 "She goes down swinging"
1:21 "Zenyatta on the mound"
1:24 "The iris consumes you"
1:27 "Listen to the whispers of madness"
1:31 "Darkness envelops all"
1:34 "Be consumed by the shadows"
1:38 "Curses and madness be upon you all"
1:41 "Be one with the darkness"
1:45 "Walk in shadow"
1:48 "We walk in shadows my aprenctice"
1:52 "Embrace oblivion"
1:55 "Frightening"
1:57 "Expierience nothingness"
2:01 "Trick or treat"
2:04 "Pass into the unkown"
2:07 "Zenyatta is here"
2:10 "Zenyatta is everywhere"
2:14 "We must guard the objective"
2:17 "They've taken possesion of him"
2:20 "He would(?) be lost without our guidence"
2:23 "The enemy has stolen away our friend"
2:27 "Our teamate has fallen"
2:29 "We've suffered a casualty"
2:31 "We have lost a teammate"
2:34 "The door will not hold much longer"
2:37 "The door will soon be reduced to kinglin(?)"
2:40 "I am restored"
2:42 "You have my thanks"
2:44 "One day i will repay your kindness"
2:48 Effort noise (kick probably?)
2:49 Effort noise
2:50 Effort noise
2:52 Effort noise
2:53 "It was nothing"
2:55 "You are welcome"
2:57 "A turret lies before us it is quite real"
3:02 "A turret is in our way"
3:04 "We must proceed as one"
3:06 "Apart we can not continue"
3:09 "We must come together then we may proceed"
3:13 "The payload is on it's way"
3:16 "The payload advances as it should"
3:20 "I am accompaning the payload"
3:23 "We must hold the payload"
3:25 "I'm under attack assistance would be appreciated"
3:29 "I require aid"
3:31 "On my way"
3:33 "No."
3:34 "We must rest victory from the jaws of time"
3:38 "Time is an illusion but he illusion it's about to run out"
3:44 "No snowflake ever falls in the wrong place"
3:48 "We are in harmony"
3:51 "Doubt shrouds you"
3:53 "What torments you"
3:55 "It is nothing personal, Genji"
3:58 "Why the look of gloom"
4:00 "Your distress betrays you, Satya"
4:03 "A shadow hangs over you"
4:06 "Your anguish comsumes you"
4:09 "You must accept the pain"
4:12 "This does not bode well for you"
4:16 "Chaos hunts your path"
4:18 "The path ahead is thorny"
4:21 "How ominous"
4:23 "Attachment the source of all suffering"
4:27 Effort noise
4:30 "Revive me so that i may re-join the fight"
4:34 "I am in need of reviving"
4:37 "I am seriously damaged"
4:39 "Life is more than a series of ones and zeros"
4:44 "We most protect our flag"
4:47 "Defend our flag"
4:49 "A detonator)? approaches we must not let it come near"
4:53 "The end approaches quickly to the robot"
4:57 "Our time draws near, grasp the opportunity"
5:02 "We most claim both the robot and our destiny"
5:06 "Our collective effort is leading us to victory"
5:11 "Let us be grateful for our advantages"
5:14 "Fortune smiles on us"
5:17 "A blessing to be among such capable hands"
5:21 "We should make our preparations here"
5:24 freezing noise
5:26 freezing noise 2
5:29 discomfort noise?
5:32 discomfort freezing noise?
5:35 freezing noise 3
5:39 "We must clear this area"
5:41 "Form is temporary the spirit is eternal"
5:46 "My apologies"
5:48 "I was mistaken"
5:50 "To err is human... or omnic"
5:53 "I require armor"
5:55 "I need armor"
5:57 "We must deal with this assassin, she continues to be a problem for us"
6:03 sigh noise
6:05 sigh noise 2
6:08 long sigh
6:10 deep breath
6:13 deep breath 2
6:15 "We must take the objective"
6:18 "Let us capture the objective"
6:21 "The enemies teleporter is here, destroy it"
6:26 "My ultimate ability is ready"
6:28 "Ready for transcendence"
6:31 "The enforcer still poses a threat"
6:34 "The flags destiny lies with another"
6:37 "Dropping the flag"
6:39 discomfort noise
6:42 discomfort noise 2
6:45 dicomfort noise 3
6:47 discomfort noise 4
6:50 discomfort noise 5
6:52 "Zenyatta is here"
6:54 "Advance the robot"
6:56 "Move the robot"
6:58 Discomort noise 6
7:01 Discomfort noise 7
7:03 more discomfort
7:04 "The flag returns"
7:06 "I have set the flag on its way"
7:09 "The assassin is over there"
7:12 "There she is"
7:14 "but intimidating nonetheless" (idk if this goes with the last one)
7:16 "Get back! she's on me"
7:19 "In 3... 2... 1..."
7:23 "3... 2... 1..."
7:26 "Get ready"
7:28 death noise
7:30 death noise 2
7:32 death noise 3
7:34 death?
7:37 more death?
7:39 "Let us push together"
7:41 "And now we begin"
7:44 "Destiny backens us towards our destination"
7:49 "My ultimate is charging"
7:52 more sigh noise
7:54 deep breath asmr
7:57 relieve breath noise
8:00 death fall noise
8:05 death fall noise 2
8:11 more death fall noise
8:18 "Hello world"
8:20 "The assassin is no more"
8:22 "Worry not she's been dealt with"
8:25 "Defend as one"
8:28 "Defend with me"
8:30 "Alone i am a tempting target for the enemy"
8:34 "Our numbers will soon be replendished"
8:38 "My allies will soon return"
8:41 "Farewell"
8:42 "Go in peace"
8:44 "I have found the enemy shield generator"
8:48 "My ultimate is almost ready"
8:50 "Understood"
8:52 "Acknowledge"
8:54 "Of course"
8:55 "Indeed"
8:57 "I understand"
8:58 "Understood"
9:00 "The door shutters)?"
9:02 "The door is heavly damaged"
9:04 "This life is not finished with you yet"
9:07 "We are still in need of you"
9:10 "Invisibility is not invincibility"
9:14 "You manifested your own fate"
9:17 "One often meets their destiny on the road the take to avoid it"
9:22 "Those who rush headlong into battle would do well to protect their heads"
9:28 "A great distance for one is but a step for another"
9:33 "Think first then leap"
9:36 "An easy target is not is not always what is appears to be"
9:40 "Foresight is as viable as speed"
9:44 "Ask for death and you will receive it"
9:48 "Remember Genji at your most powerful you are most vulnerable"
9:54 "Capture the flag"
9:56 "Let us take the enemy's flag"
9:59 "Be reborn"
10:01 "Oblivion embraces you"
10:04 "Fade into shadow"
10:07 "May the Iris embrace you"
10:10 "Be at peace"
10:12 "The wheel turns"
10:14 "The darkness consumes"
10:17 "Let us clear them off the objective"
10:20 "Our enemies are ceasing)? the objective"
10:23 "They are taking hold of the objective, we must stop them"
10:29 "Fortune favors me"
10:31 Laugh (AAAAAAAAAA)
10:34 "The iris embraces you"
10:38 "It is my pleasure to serve"
10:41 "There is no weakness in asking for help"
10:44 "Does who seek help will find it"
10:47 "Consider the alternative"
10:50 "The world is a dangerous place"
10:53 "The help is it's own reward"
10:56 "How amusing"
10:58 "The end is near we must not hold back"
11:02 "Time runs short, attack!"
11:06 "We must wrest the victory from the jaws of time"
11:10 "Time is an illusion but he illusion it's about to run out" (Again?)
11:15 "Press forward for time is not at our side"
11:19 "Time is off the escence let us attack"
11:23 "An erradicator be on your guard"
11:26 "She still poses a threat"
11:29 "The sniper still troubles us"
11:31 "Can i interest you in a snowball fight?"
11:34 "Do i think? Does a submarine swim?"
11:39 "The turret no longer exists"
11:42 "The turret is no more"
11:45 "The objective cannot take much more of this"
11:48 "Our objective will soon be destroyed"
11:51 "Mercy swiftly delivered"
11:54 "The more one takes the less one has"
11:58 "Accomplishment always follows effort"
12:02 "Tragedy unites many"
12:04 "My generosity extends to many"
12:08 "Perhaps we only exist in the memory of a person now gone"
12:13 burning? (noise)
12:17 burning
12:19 burning 2
12:21 more burning
12:24 burns
12:26 "Patience"
12:28 "The damage doesn't look as bad from up here"
12:31 probably getting charged by Reinhardt?
12:34 same?
12:37 AAAaaAAA
12:40 critical health
12:42 "The objective is no more"
12:45 "The objective has been eliminated"
12:48 "I require shields"
12:50 "I need sheilds"
12:52 "The assassin is gone for the moment"
12:55 "She's disappeard"
12:57 "Victory is our destiny but we must all play our parts"
13:03 "Stay steadfast and we shall win"
13:07 "Victory is within our grasp hold strong"
13:12 "We must see this through to the end"
13:16 "Let us hold out until the end"
13:19 "Time is on our side we must simply endure"
13:24 "I'm feeling unwell"
13:27 "My systems are compromised"
13:29 "Disabling security protocols"
13:32 "Your recognition honors me"
13:35 "The cards have selected me"
13:38 "Our enemies return with vengeance"
13:41 "Beware they have returned"
13:44 "The enemy is utilising a shield generator"
13:48 "Enemy shield generator destroyed"
13:51 "Hold the robot we must end their push"
13:55 "Recover our flag"
13:58 "We must retake possession of our flag"
14:01 "Peace be upon you"
14:03 "I greet you"
14:05 "Hello"
14:06 "Greetings"
14:08 "We must reclaim our flag"
14:10 "The enemy has taken posetion of our flag"
14:14 "Come to me for healing"
14:16 "Come here for healing"
14:18 "The path to healing leads here"
14:21 "A shoked tire bears down upon us)?" (i didn't understand a thing)
14:24 "Shock tire over the breach)?" (same)
14:27 "The enemy posseses a teleporter"
14:30 "Energy transfers between us"
14:33 "I believe i won this round"
14:36 "A telling blow"
14:38 "A touch of wisdom"
14:41 "What profound impact"
14:43 "Scadoosh" (HAHAHA WHEN?? from a skin??)
14:45 effort noise
14:46 effort noise 2
14:47 effort noise 3
14:49 effort noise 4
14:50 effort noise 5
14:51 effort noise 6
14:52 "Over here"
14:54 coughing
14:59 coughing 2
15:08 "I have spotted an enemy bastion"
15:10 "Remember past succeses but always strive for more"
15:16 "This way"
15:18 "Here my friends"
15:20 laugh (I love him)
15:23 "I AM VITALIZED"
15:27 "MY SENSES ARE HEIGHTENED"
15:30 "STRENGTH FLOWS THROUGH ME"
15:33 "I AM EMPOWERED"
15:35 "I think therefore i am"
15:40 "When did you received this curse countess"
15:44 "Some believe that the full moon is a good omen"
15:48 "Did i say i trusted her"
15:51 "I do not sense the spark of life within you"
15:54 "Walk along the path to enlightenment"
15:58 "Ready i am ready" (Oh god...)
16:01 "I dreamt i was a butterfly"
16:04 "Frightening"
16:06 "There are null)? troopers ahead"
16:08 "No troopers spotted"
16:10 "The enforcer is no more"
16:13 "The flag moves with me"
16:15 "I have become one with the flag"
16:19 "Go to the objective"
16:21 "Let us head to the waypoint"
16:23 "Let us re group at the objective"
16:26 "The objective is near"
16:29 "Take care that you do not spend yourself before the battle is done"
16:34 "Our purpose is to show everyone that in the iris we are all one people"
16:41 "Rarely has my path crossed a warrior as cheerful as you"
16:45 "No one of note just one of thousands of like me)?" (what?)
16:50 "Do you think me so helpless"
16:52 "But one moment of clarity changed everything"
16:56 "There are times even i can not stand by"
17:00 "It is not magic but the power of the spirit that i channel"
17:05 "My believes are simply in the fundamental ways of life and nature nothing more"
17:12 "Simply a traveler of search of purpose and meaning"
17:16 "I'm following in my masters footsteps searching for enlightenment tho my path has not always been a stright one"
17:25 "Our objective has been damaged"
17:27 "Our enemies are breaking through"
17:30 "Fate is not without a sense of irony"
17:34 "Look in the mirror"
17:36 "We move with the objective"
17:39 "Let us see the objective to it's destination"
17:43 "The enemy out numbers us"
17:45 "We are outnumbered be cautious"
17:49 "I sense the reaper"
17:51 "I sense the presence of the witch"
17:54 "The summoner is here"
17:57 "Doctor Junkenstein so good of you to join us"
18:02 "The ground shakes"
18:04 "Junkenstein's monster is here"
18:07 "We should guide our flag back to safety"
18:10 "The enemy has relinquished our flag"
18:13 "We must move them from the door"
18:16 "They have reached the door"
18:19 "The summoner is no more"
18:21 "The witch is gone but she will reaturn"
18:26 "Doctor Junkenstein has laughed his last"
18:30 "Junkenstein's monster has fallen"
18:33 "The reaper is gone for the moment"
18:37 "I am made whole"
18:39 "My systems are restored"
18:42 "My systems are repeared"
18:45 "I am healed"
18:47 "Your dance grows more elegant Satya"
18:51 "You are adept at endings")? (idk)
18:54 "Well done my apprentice"
18:57 "Eventually all fade into oblivion"
19:00 "Well done Genji"
19:03 "You have ushered them to paradise"
19:06 "There is beauty in your actions"
19:09 "I did not teach you that one"
19:12 "Fall back"
19:13 "Likewise Satya i hope to repay you for your generosity at our temple"
19:19 "I served coffee"
19:21 "Then paint it with emptiness"
19:24 "How... fortunate for you"
19:27 "Why do you believe so?"
19:29 "I collected payments at a laser tag arena"
19:33 "Perhaps they believe we will not defend this place but if all the rest of the wolrd were to fall this would be the stand i chose to make"
19:44 "I like being near the ocean it reminds me of where i was born"
19:49 "I sense that your hardest battle is yet to come"
19:54 "What seems like magic is sometimes science we dont yet understand"
20:00 "Victory goes to those who maintain their focus"
20:04 "I was a life guard at a waterpark"
20:08 "It would be a pleasure"
20:10 "I drove a tractor"
20:12 "You have an intense gaze doctor"
20:15 "You spend your second chance at life walking a lonely road"
20:21 "I believe that Torbjörn's behavior has rubbed of on you"
20:25 "I owe my gifts to the iris"
20:29 "What makes you think i am a pacifist"
20:32 "Someone always cares you must simply seek them out"
20:36 "I dream of peace and sometimes falling"
20:41 "And yet you sound just like he did"
20:44 "A mirror reflects only what can be seen"
20:48 "Perhaps it is assumptions that are foolish"
20:52 "Try listening to silence"
20:55 "Our mission awaits us"
20:58 "Indeed"
20:59 "I massaged sheep on a free-range pasture"
21:03 "Shed the weight of your doubts, and your mind will become clear"
21:08 "Seeking progress by sowing chaos is like planting a tree in a volcano"
21:14 "Change often comes univited what you make of it is up to you"
21:21 "Quite a puzzle isn't it?"
21:24 "I embrace the unkown"
21:27 "And what of the enemy within"
21:30 "I focus on my breathing"
21:32 "Strangeness is in the eye of the beholder"
21:37 "My memories from before the awakening are blurry like a fading dream but i do remember somethings"
21:46 "In the coming battle you mean?"
21:48 "To find succes we must search in harmony"
21:53 "As long as there is free will i fear there will be evil"
21:57 "If a city never sleeps how can it dream?"
22:02 "Those who only seek to enrich themselves lives the most impoverished lives of all"
22:08 "True it also makes us great teachers for we can easily hide our disappointment"
22:15 "Indeed, why are we here?"
22:18 "Ask not who their maker is but what they mean"
22:24 "Is victory so important?"
22:27 "Fruition comes from within as does failure"
22:32 "I have always wondered what it is like being inside an orb"
22:37 "Over there"
22:38 "I need help"
22:40 "I require assistance"
22:43 "I pray that we can reverse this outcome"
22:46 "We are not deafeated yet"
22:49 "We must persist from the difficult times"
22:53 "This obstacle can still be overcome"
22:57 "Trick or treat"
22:59 "A temporary set back"
23:02 "We can overcome any obstacle"
23:05 "We must act and soon"
23:08 "Let us remember our purpose"
23:10 "Progress awaits us"
23:13 ""Perhaps we are forgetting something"
23:15 "We must eliminate this target"
23:19 "Caution"
23:20 "Be alert"
23:22 "Watch here"
23:24 "An enemy here"
23:25 "Here is an enemy"
23:27 "heal this one)???"
23:29 "We must guard the objective"
23:32 "Defend the objective"
23:34 "Even the teacher can learn from his student"
23:38 "It takes a hundred times to learn, a thousand times to understand" (My fav)
23:44 "One who fears loss has already lost"
23:49 "The cycle begins anew"
23:52 "True strength does not always lie in victory"
23:56 "Pain is an excellent teacher"
24:00 "Overconfidence is a flimsy shield"
24:04 "A reminder that life is never easy"
24:08 "Defeat cannot break one who perseveres"
24:12 "The cycle is broken"
24:14 "Adversity is an opportunity for change"
24:18 "A challenge presents itself"
24:21 "A temporary set back" (again..)
24:24 "Failure is acceptable giving up is not"
24:28 "The outcome is not preordained"
24:32 "Repetition is the path to mastery"
24:36 "Our fates are written in the stars"
24:40 "The enemy is here"
24:42 "The enemy desires a battle"
24:45 "Let the blessings of the season be upon you"
24:49 "I return"
24:51 "Press the attack"
24:53 "Let us all become one with the objective"
24:56 "Proceed to the objective"
24:59 "An enforcer is before us"
25:01 "Pass into the iris"
25:04 "Reflect upon your actions"
25:07 "Your set back is only temporary"
25:10 "Rest your soul"
25:13 "A cruel fate"
25:15 "Pride can not protect you"
25:17 "Your focus lacks focus"
25:20 "One day you will see that coming"
25:23 "Science cannot answer all questions"
25:27 "And now, you have found peace"
25:30 "You must learn from your mistakes"
25:34 "No fist has ever won against an open hand"
25:38 "Your answer lies in stillness"
25:41 "Good judgment comes from bad experiences"
25:45 "Regret is all-consuming"
25:49 "A resolution swiftly delivered"
25:52 "All ice melts"
25:54 "A beautiful swansong"
25:57 "I didn't go easy on you this time"
26:00 "And so the mask falls"
26:03 "We all represent unfulfilled potential"
26:07 "Greed has spent you"
26:10 "Silence answers all questions"
26:13 "A closed mind is already defeated"
26:18 "Let the sun set on your pride"
26:21 "Defeat is the better teacher"
26:24 "What goes around, comes around"
26:28 "Not everything should be taken seriously"
26:32 "When you soar you risk the fall"
26:36 "Move too quickly, and you overlook too much"
26:39 "What legacy is worth your life?"
26:43 "In chaos, more chaos"
26:46 "Do not hesitate"
26:48 "The lead awaits us"
26:50 "Soon the lead will be ours"
26:54 "We are being drawn to the lead"
26:57 "Tho i stand alone my teammates still fight at my side"
27:02 "The task falls to me"
27:05 "We are making progress upon the objective"
27:08 "The objective has taken damage"
27:10 "All proceeds according to plan"
27:13 "The rhythm is in you if you search within, get down into the iris, float to the beat"
27:22 "Ummmmm"
27:25 "Embrace the rhythm, embrace the beat, embrace the melody, move your feet"
27:32 "I humbly accept"
27:35 "I will become one with this reward"
27:38 "The universe shares it's bounty"
27:42 "I foresee great riches in my future"
27:45 "The experience is its own reward but surprises are nice" (oh)
27:51 "Join me"
27:53 "Group up"
27:54 "Group up here"
27:56 "We must join as one"
27:59 "Group up with me"
28:01 "Join together"
28:03 "I will not juggle"
28:05 "Yes"
28:07 "The door has open to our enemy"
28:10 "The enemy comes thru the doorway"
28:13 "We must destroy the objective"
28:16 "Focus our attacks upon the objective"
28:19 "That was your lesson for today"
28:22 "Our moments)?? run out do not leave him"
28:26 "Now we must focus, stay with our robot friend"
28:30 "I can sense your presence"
28:33 "Enemy detected"
28:35 "There is someone there"
28:37 "Let go of that that which weighs upon your mind"
28:42 "Behind you"
28:43 "Slicers approaching)???"
28:45 heavy sigh
28:48 sigh
28:50 sigh 2
28:53 effort noise
28:54 kick probably?
28:55 effort noise 2
28:56 "Join me at the objective"
28:59 "Come to the objective"
29:01 "To me my friends"
29:03 "What joy to share the path with another"
29:07 "A promising disciple"
29:10 "You've learned well Genji"
29:12 "Our minds aligned"
29:15 "It takes two hands to clap" (brutal)
29:18 "A meaningful union"
29:20 "One intention many hands"
29:24 "We must focus our attack upon the objective"
29:28 "I see the sniper"
29:30 "There she is"
29:32 "I will watch this place"
29:34 "Keeping watch here"
29:36 "Allow me to watch here"
29:39 "Meditation is all i require to sustain myself"
29:43 "It most be my many years of training, careful diet and simple way of life" (He's such a troll lol)
29:50 "You wound me"
29:52 "A pause in the battle and opportunity to re-center our minds"
29:57 "When i gazed into the iris i found great nothingness, it changed me"
30:04 "You've must have experienced the same"
30:07 "You blame yourself for the dragon's reign of terror but it is not your fault"
30:13 "Push forward"
30:15 sigh?
30:16 more sigh
30:18 relieve sigh
30:19 sigh 1000
30:21 "They have all perished"
30:23 "We are alone for now"
30:27 "Aaaaww serenity at last"
30:31 "Free your mind"
30:33 "The enemy steers we must hold them)?" (idk)
30:37 "Do not allow the enemy to proceed"
30:40 "The enemy begins to move along their path"
30:44 "Breach the door and our path will be revealed"
30:49 "We must break through"
30:51 "Remove the obstruction before us"
30:54 long sigh
30:58 deep breath
31:01 long sigh 2
31:04 DEATH
31:05 death 2
31:07 "Focus on the target"
31:10 "We must eliminate this target"
31:13 "Through here"
31:14 "Our path lies this way"
31:17 "I have dropped the item"
31:20 "Unfortunately i dropped it"
31:23 "I sense an enemy to the right"
31:26 "A shocked tire approaches to our right"
31:29 "Joy to the world"
31:32 "We must locate their teleporter"
31:34 "A shocked tire approaches on the left"
31:37 "Our enemy approaches on the left"
31:40 "I welcome adversity"
31:43 "A momentary set back"
31:45 "My thanks"
31:47 "Thank you"
31:48 "I am grateful"
31:50 "You have my thanks"
31:52 "Wonderful"
31:54 "Excellence is its own reward"
31:58 "Get out of there"
31:59 "I'm going in"
32:01 "We have injured the heaviest sold)? unit" (idk the word)
32:04 "A chance presents itself to strike him down"
32:08 "Talent trooper engaging"
32:10 "I see a sniper"
32:12 "Sniper!"
32:13 A lot of effort noises
32:22 "Always strive for improvement"
32:25 "Together we have taken the lead"
32:29 "AaaA progression"
32:31 "We advance as one"
32:34 "Your flaws are revealed... in the Iris"
32:39 "Know when to hold on, and when to let go"
32:43 "How far the mighty fall"
32:46 "A stumble is still a step towards a direction"
32:50 "A fall is merely a chance to rise again... later"
32:56 "Observe your environment; carefully"
32:59 "You may be missed... but not by me" (Brutal 2)
33:03 "What is descent, but a lesson in humility?"
33:07 "They have fallen... how unfortunate"
33:11 "Attack"
33:12 "Let us strike in harmony"
33:15 "Attack with me"
33:17 "UUUUUUUUUMMMMMMM"
33:23 VERY DEEP BREATH
33:30 "Amid discord, we will find tranquility"
33:35 "He must be dealt with"
33:37 "We must find a way to deal with the heaviest assault)? unit"
33:41 "The summoners threat must be ended"
33:45 "Doctor Junkenstein must be dealt with"
33:48 "The reaper still haunts us"
33:51 "We must vanish the witch"
33:54 "Junkenstein's monster must be destroyed"
33:58 "Existence is mysterious"
34:01 "I have learned from my experiences"
34:05 "My mind is open"
34:07 "My spirit is strong now to strike"
34:12 "Energy flow through me"
34:15 "Every rooster crows in its own pen"
34:19 a lot of effort noises
34:23 "The payload it is at a stand still"
34:26 "Let us push the payload forward"
34:29 "We must unblock the payload"
34:32 "Incoming"
34:34 "The payload must me stopped"
34:36 "We must hinder the payload's journey"
34:40 "Let us hold that payload"
34:42 "I require healing"
34:44 "I need healing"
34:46 "How... disappointing"
34:49 "She's turned her attention to you"
34:52 "The assassin is targeting you"
34:54 "Take cover"
34:56 "Victory or defeat our destiny is not preordained"
35:02 "Be present in the moment"
35:04 "It is good to return but am i still welcome here?"
35:09 "Your will is strong my friend"
35:11 "But in time i know you will realize we are not so different"
35:17 "And i will watch your back in turn"
35:20 "Consider only victory make defeat an impossibility in your mind"
35:26 "Tell me your thoughts my friend"
35:29 "I can feel the embrace of the iris so strongly in here"
35:34 "I would be happy to teach you"
35:36 "It is rare that i meet one with such an unformed mind"
35:40 "It is good to fight alongside one of my brightest pupils"
35:46 "It does, my brother Mondatta, gave much to improve their lifes but it was not to be"
35:53 "A disciplined mind is your most dependable ally."
35:58 "A chance to focus"
36:00 "A warrior's greatest weapon... is patience"
36:05 "So this is where you grew up? You must show me around"
36:10 "If only human and omnic could learn to live in peace here..."
36:15 "I sense within you the same rage that once consumed your brother"
36:20 "What a fascinating place! Can science alone unlock the path to enlightenment?"
36:28 "Do you have any dreams, my friend?"
36:31 "And i do not understand much of how you heal doctor Zeigler"
36:35 "I suppose we must all take some things on faith"
36:42 "Existence is mysterious isn't it"
36:43 "An omnic on the moon is not so special. There are more robots than humans in space"
36:50 "To us all i miss him greatly"
36:53 "I believe that we must all do our part to find solutions to the troubles that are before us"
37:00 "It is sad to see a place that might have known peace... reduced to this"
37:06 "A noble but tragic sacrifice, i hope that you will honor it"
37:12 "I have not returned here for many years. I wonder if my brothers and sisters will be pleased to see me"
37:20 "Turring green)?? my brother's dream but not to be" (what)
37:26 "Time is a river it may be stopped for a while but it will always flow the same direction"
37:34 "I feel most unwelcome here"
37:38 "Genji how was your reunion with your brother?"
37:42 "Symmetra you speak of law and of order but you must know that life is chaotic by it's very nature"
37:51 "I believe that you could find peace, if you were to search within yourself"
37:57 "Indeed my friend, indeed"
38:01 "I hear that you've taken an omnic Torbjörn"
38:04 "The payload rests idle"
38:07 "The payload must be moved"
38:10 "We must move the payload"
38:13 Getting hurt i think
38:17 "This will be of use"
38:19 "I have what we seek"
38:21 "Here we are"
38:22 "I sense the presence of an assassin"
38:25 "An assassin comes for us"
38:28 "Experience tranquility"
38:31 "Our teammate is in need of reviving"
38:34 "Our teammate needs to be revived"
38:38 Pain
38:49 "Let us pave our path together"
38:52 "Shall we journey together"
38:55 "We must work and breath as one"
38:58 "We are all pilgrims on this mission"
39:02 "I am with you"
39:03 "We are as one"
39:06 "The path of fate threatens to diverge in the enemy's favor"
39:10 "The enemy draws near stop them"
39:14 "We must prevent the enemy from taking the lead"
39:18 "The objective nears destruction"
39:21 "We've almost achieved our objective"
39:24 "The enemy has pushed past us"
39:26 "We have lost the lead"
39:29 "The enemy's understandings surpasses ours"
39:33 "The enemy's teleporter is no more"
39:36 "I feel the darkness flowing through me"
39:40 "My soul ignited!"
39:43 "I am efervescent"
39:45 "My spirit burns!"
39:48 "An R-14 engage with caution"
39:52 "Remember me, for I will remember you"
39:56 "My heavy burden to bear"
39:59 "Virtuosity is an admirable virtue"
40:03 "A herald of victory"
40:05 "Mastery cannot be concealed"
40:08 "Our enemy gathers here" (>-<)
40:11 "I shall handle this"
40:13 "It is done"
40:15 "Allow me"
40:17 "We must see this through to the end"
40:20 "Victory is our destiny but we must all play our parts" (again)
40:26 "Victory is within our grasp hold strong" (again)
40:31 "I am in an agreement"
40:33 "We need a healer"
40:35 "The enemys flag is ours"
40:38 "I have captured the flag"
40:40 "If you do not change direction, you may end up where you're headed"
40:45 "Let us escort you along your path"
40:48 "We will unify our push with yours"
40:52 "Hello brother"
40:54 "Come with us"
40:56 "Go"
40:57 "I am attaining the objective"
40:59 "I am on the objective my friends"
41:03 "Join me on the objective"
41:06 "Death is whimsical today"
41:09 "Walk in shadow"
41:12 "Listen to my prayer"
41:15 "Harmony is within your grasp"
41:18 "Be whole once more"
41:21 "I release your suffering"
41:24 "A balm for your wounds"
41:26 "We walk in the shadows, my apprentice"
41:30 "Gaze into the unblinking eye"
41:34 "Embrace oblivion"
41:36 "Be one with the darkness"
41:40 "Be reassured you are not alone"
41:44 "Find solace"
41:46 "Overcome your pain"
41:49 "Your spirits lifted"
41:52 "Let me assist you"
41:55 "Allow me"
41:57 "Harmony follows you"
41:59 "Be soothed"
42:02 "I am with you my friend"
42:04 "Let me relieve your burdens"
42:07 slight effort noises
42:12 pain? effort? idk just noises
42:21 "I'm over here"
42:23 "I am here"
42:25 "My ultimate is ready proceed without fear"
42:29 "You are not ready to learn"
42:32 "Peace and blessings be upon you all"
42:36 death 200
42:43 "The attack comes form the above"
42:45 "The attack comes from the right"
42:48 "Our enemies are behind us"
42:50 "They attack form below"
42:53 "Our enemies attack from the rear)??"
42:55 "The enemy lies before us"
42:58 "Our enemies attack directly"
43:00 "The enemy is on the left"
43:03 "The enemy is below us"
43:06 "The enemy is above us"
43:08 "The enemy is on the right"
43:10 "The attack comes form the left"
43:13 "One moon shows in every pool. In every pool; one moon"

It’s over. I know it is. I’m sad, my heart hurts. I love you, you and I know I’ll always love you.
I’m sorry it ended the way it did. I realize I wasn’t just in love with you, but I was even more in love with the idea of the kind of happiness I could finally have in my life.
The loneliness doesn’t bother me anymore, I have come to terms with that. I was only lonely for you. To be with you, in your arms.
I know I’ll make myself even more sad thinking about what could have been. I would’ve given you everything. I love you but I can’t be your simp anymore.
I don’t even want to stop writing this letter that I’m hoping you’ll see, because I know once I do, I can’t let myself go backwards, no matter how much I want.
I love you, I’ll think of you, I’ll dream of you. I’ll always crave and want you.

Just received my second order (placed about 3 weeks ago) of 2 tubs. Was hit with a 24CAD customs duty fee by CBSA for classification "electrical". Is this common for Canadians? In my first order (tub + First Cup), I did not get any extra fees. I've been really enjoying my first tub and cup and so I've made a total of 4 orders - so as of today still waiting on #3 (Shinobi + a tub) and #4 (polarized shaker combo + another tub). If these last two also get hit with a fee that will be total about 75CAD of customs. I really love gsupps so far but it might have to be the end of the journey for me because economically this is not viable and makes no sense.
Not gsupps fault, but really sucks and I am wondering if others have experienced this.

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Welcome back, mega masters of the mush collective!
Before we get into the gooooods, I wanted to address a recurring issue we've been having for a couple weeks now with duplicate orders. For some unknown reason, some of you are submitting an order just fine as usual, however, sometimes my website is kicking out an error after clicking "submit" to place your order. EVEN THOUGH IT LOOKS LIKE YOUR ORDER HAS NOT GONE THROUGH, IT HAS! Check your email to confirm your order has been placed before placing a duplicate order please! If you refresh or go back and place another order, it's still fine and you can checkout as usual, I just have to go through and manually cancel those duplicates. I submitted yet another ticket with Wordpress today to try and get this resolved, as my past attempts have not been resolved. So sorry for the hassle friendos!
On a positive note, APPLE PAY is back as a method of payment! Still working on the traditional credit/debit service and shouldn't be long!
On perhaps an even better positive note, we're nearing order #20,000 over here! What!?!?! All this still seems surreal. I had no idea when all this started that I would reach so many people all over the world, but my heart still feels the same as it did on day one. Thank you everyone who has shown support over the years and allowed me to live up to my true calling and ultimate dream of spreading happiness, kindness and healing. I feel like every day is a true blessing, each month somehow tops the last in some way, and I am incredibly grateful for this opportunity. Y'all rock so hard!
I suppose we haven't actually hit 20k yet, since some duplicate orders recently had to be canceled, but 19.8k or whatever the actual number is is close enough and still an accomplishment, so I'll count it! Plus you want a chance at some free stuffs, right? We will likely hit number 20,000 today or tomorrow, and if that lucky duck is you, here's what we're looking at:
Everything.
I mean, I'd like to keep the house, car and my pet reindeer Ned, but order 20,000 is in for a lifetime treat:
23qt. Pressure Cooker
50 different cubensis syringes
10 different exotic syringes
20 swab packs (you choose!)
5 spore prints (you choose!)
And whether you are into gourmet cultivation or not, you'll also snag the following:
20 gourmet liquid cultures
20 pre-poured agar plates w/parafilm
10 lbs of the finest perfectly hydrated and sterilized grains (10lb total split however you want! ex: 5-2lb bags, etc)
Two 5lb bags of substrate
If you really REALLY aren't into the gourmets, of course I won't force it on ya. We can work out some kind of substitution but I strongly encourage expanding your knowledge and growing some actual food!
Aaaaand because I'm a fun gi, order #19999 and #20001 will score a surprise box similar to the ones I've given away in the past month or so. You don't know what's in it yet because I don't know what's in it yet. Each care pack is a bit different, and I usually feel out what to include as I'm packing it up (and somehow it's usually just what is needed on the other end. Thanks universe!). I don't think I've seen any pics or reviews of the ones I've already sent out, but I can say the receivers are very pleased :) Which also reminds me I have not updated rewards points for those reviews in a couple weeks gah!! I'll get on that tomorrow, my b!
As promised last week, this was an exotic heavy restock week! Fresh from the printing press, we have a FULL stock of Azurescens, Ps. Cyanescens, Gymnopilus Luteofolius, Gymnopilus Spectabilis (Laughing Gym), Natalensis, Ovoids, Subaeruginosa, Tampanensis and Zapotecorum! All are available in both syringes and swabs and shouldn't run out any time soon!
New(ish) to the cubensis library this week, I'm pleased to report that S. African Transkei is back in full force! We're in the final testing stages of a few other cubes that \should** be ready by next week too!
Enjoy this last day of May my friends! LOVE yourself, spread alllll the kindness and call yo momma! Mush Love <3
CREDIT/DEBIT card payments: we're working on a fix for this, again with no certain ETA. But I know that's a popular and easy payment method, so all hands are on deck with this issue! In the meantime, if you'd still like to pay with a card, try this unenthusiastic workaround:
Purchase an Amazon e-gift card from THIS LINK. Enter [[email protected]](mailto:[email protected]) as the recipient, add your order number to the memo line and badda bing badda bang, it's sent straight to me. If you're anti-Amazon, I get it. Please keep that mentality. Credit/debit will be back ASAP!
It's ALWAYS now forever. It's NEVER not now. BE HERE NOW! You have no choice...
***I love trades!**\* Trades are the best! If you're an artist or have a specialty of your own and would like to work out a trade for some genetics, please let me know! I've never ever turned down a trade and my lab is full of art, messages and nick knacks from this fantastic community. Diabetic supplies needed and accepted too :) Get in here!
Need to talk? Need a friend? Need to vent? I'm here, let's chat! Always in Love <3
PLACING AN ORDER:
All orders must be placed on the website to receive order confirmation and tracking emails. I have several coupon codes to fit most packages, but if you have a large order or need a custom coupon code, please email me, and I'll take care of you :) You may mix-n-match swabs, spore syringes, and liquid cultures (exotics and "special" swab packs excluded)
The most common order, and the best deal is with coupon code 5PACK, which is for 5 cubensis spore syringes, swabs, or gourmet liquid cultures for $30, including shipping! Coupon code 10PACK is $60 for 10 cubensis or gourmet varieties. Use coupon code 2PACK for 2/$20, or if you need any exotics with your 5-pack, you can use coupon code NEEDMORE for 5 cubes and 1 exotic for $40. NEEDMORE2 for 5 cubes and 2 exotics for $50, and so on :)
NEW EXOTIC COUPON CODES:
TWOSpicy - 2 for $25 Exotic syringes and swab packs
FOURSpicy - 4 for $40 Exotic syringes and swab packs
***PLEASE NOTE*** We cannot ship active spores to CA, ID or GA
***PLEASE NOTE*** All cultivation inquiries or any mention of cultivation of active species will result in a block, cancelled order, and invalid for any refunds or exchanges. Spores are for microscopy use only.
LIST OF AVAILABLE VARIETIES (list accurate at 17:00 on 5/31/23, but will change as varieties sell out):
CUBENSIS SPORE SYRINGES AND SWABS AND SOMETIMES PRINTS:
Acadian Coast
Alacabenzi
Avery's Albino (SWABS ONLY)
B+
Blue Magnolia Rust
Blue Meanie
Burma
Cambodian Gold
Columbian Rust
Costa Rican
Creeper
Ecuador
Elephant Gate
Fiji
Ghost
Golden Mammoth
Golden Teacher
Hillbilly
Huautla
Iquitos
Koh Samui
Leucistic Cambodian
Lizard King
Malabar
Mars
Matapanas
Mazatapec
Mexi-Cub
Namuang
Orissa India
Penis Envy #6
PES Amazon
PES Hawaiian
PF Classic
PF Redspore
Phobos (swabs only)
Puerto Rican
Red Boy
Rusty Whyte
S. African Transkei
S. American
Subcubensis
Tasmanian
Texas Yellow Cap
Tidalwave
Treasure Coast
Xico
Z-Strain
EXOTIC SPORE SYRINGES AND SWABS:
Gymnopilus Luteofolius (Yellow Gilled Gymnopilus)
Gymnopilus Spectabilis (Laughing Gym)
Pan Cam Jam
Ps. Allenii
Ps. Azurescens
Ps. Galindoi ATL7
Ps. Natalensis
Ps. Ovoideocystidiata
Ps. Semilanceata (Liberty Cap)
Ps. Subaeruginosa
Ps. Tampanensis (Pollock)
Ps. Zapotecorum
GOURMET LIQUID CULTURES:
Agarikon
Artist's Conk
Bear's Head
Beefsteak
Bitter Oyster (Bioluminescent!) < Black Pearl Oyster
Black PoplaPioppino
Blue Oyster
Branched Oyster
Chaga
Chestnut
Chicken of the Woods
Coral Tooth
Cordyceps Militaris
Enoki
Florida Oyster
Golden Brown Beech
Ghost Fungus
Honey Mushroom
Jack-O-Lantern
Lions Mane
Nameko
Pathfinder Oyster
Pearl Oyster
Pestalotiopsis Microspora (Plastic munchin' non-fruitin' machine! Or is it?? We need our finest on this)
Pink Oyster
Red Reishi
Shaggy Mane
Shiitake
Sordid Blewit
Sporeless Oyster
Tarragon Oyster
Tiger Sawgill
True Morel
Turkey Tail
Veiled Oyster
White Elm
***PLEASE NOTE*** We cannot ship active spores to CA, ID or GA
***PLEASE NOTE*** All cultivation inquiries or any mention of cultivation of active species will result in a block, cancelled order, and invalid for any refunds or exchanges. Spores are for microscopy use only.

So...can we agree Will Smith completely misunderstood what Django was about? He wanted a love story. News flash: It wasn't meant to be a love story it was an homage to old school westerns which were mainly revenge stories with white leads, but this time with a black lead. If you don't like it fine, but don't claim it to be something that it was never gonna be. You're upset that the movie wasn't made how you wanted it to be made, but it was never your movie, never your vision. It was Quentin's. And the fact is many black people loved it for giving us another great iconic Black hero/anti hero, set in slavery no less. Complaining about the movie is like complaining about a painting in a museum if you don't enjoy it move to the next one so others can enjoy it. Did not mean for this comment to be so long but hey I love this movie so...

12/3/22
Tonight was grocery night. My wife started in on me with the kids in the car about all the problems in our marriage. She says I blame her for the last year, that I no longer look at or tough her. Which is strange since she told me she is resentful of me and I remind her of her grandfather. Why would I initiate with someone who doesnt show me they love me or have any desire for me. I tried but I no longer love her and I don't desire her any longer. She commented on my weight loss, asking her how much more I wanted to lose, I told her another 20 pounds maybe. Then she said that I would look sick if I lost that much weight. She asked if there were any particular reason I wanted to lose weight. She also stated that I must despise her because she has no desire to lose weight. Then stated she had recently lost 13 pounds. She started to complain that I only talked about my boss, which is true because she is really the only person I speak to at work, besides Byron, but he is new. She doesn't seem to understand how isolated I am at work. She then started in on me about not helping around the house, which is funny because she has commented many times on how much I do, yet she always seems to forget it within a week or 2. She kept telling me how I never speak to her and I told her I cant because if I do I will just get in trouble because of my memory, then she proved me right by bitching at me because I ask questions about things she has told me. She also threw out a lot of excuses because she has been stressed and busy with college. She then asked if we could start over and I said yes. Why can't she ever start this shit when we are without the kids.
12/4/22
Today we went to church, then got some Little Caesars pizza. After lunch my wife went to the school to do some things. It is 9:00 pm as I write this and she has been gone for 8 hours. I bathed the kids, did the dishes, cooked the kids supper, and I did my laundry and put up 4 loads of laundry, 2 of which she had done but as usual she will not put up. I put up the childrens clothes from their luggage from Thanksgiving, one week later. I put up all the laundry except for my wifes. She still has clothes lying in the chair from over a month ago, and clothes lying in 2 piles on the bedroom floor that have been there for 3 months. I did some digging and found a conversation between my wife and MIL and SIL. My wife swept the hallway in Oct, the 1st time in a very long time, and posted the picture to a facebook messenger group the 3 of them are on. As usual MIL chimed in with why don't I help. My wife said because that would interfere with sitting on my but and playing video games. MIL then said its ridiculous because my wife works twice as hard as I do and I should help. My wife is lying to her MIL and either lying to herself or actually believes I don't do anything. She will find out eventually how much I do and dont do when she actually has to do all this shit herself. Also, I spent an hour or 2 outside trimming the trees away from the house, dead limbs, And then stacking them for bulk pickup. My wife just got home, I have the kids in bed and she gets mad because she now has to clean her desk because I am working from home tomorrow and she doesn't want me to touch her things. She then raised her voice at the state of the house because she is the only one that actually sees it, only one that cleans it, and the only one that doesn't have time to clean it. I haven't spent more than an hour today not working and she just belittled everything I did today.
12/7/22
Today didn't start out great. I am working from home today due to meetings and a dr appointment. I told my wife earlier in the week but she forgot and was upset that I didn't tell her. I had my dr appointment and then my meeting I couldn't miss. Afterwards, I started on dishes and supper. Wife and kids came home while I was doing that and the only person to come greet me was my ychild. My wife never came to say hello or see what I was doing, she didn't say thank you for cooking supper or what a great meal it was. In fact one of the first things she said to me was after I couldn't find the bbq sauce. She came into the kitchen, looked in the back at the top of the fridge and found it. I asked her where it was and she just looked at me and said somewhere I would have never found it. It was so dejecting and spiteful. After supper I finished the dishes and took out the trash while they were gone for church. Speaking of trash, every week i pick up the trash from my ochilds room. The vast majority of the trash is fast food drinks that my wife left on the side table when she sleeps there every night.
12/17/22
We have inlaws coming in for Christmas later this week. We had to pick-up groceries today and we are meeting up with SIL and BIL to look at Christmas lights, so I didn't have much time today to prepare. While my wife was gone to shop with her church friends I cleaned off the back porch and swept the front yard into a large pile for the kids to play in. I worked late doing so and barely managed to finish before she got back home before we left for the SIl’s. We were gone late and got back around midnight.
12/18/22
Had church this morning and ate lunch in town while running errands. After we got back my wife spent the rest of the day picking up and cleaning ychilds room. She ended up throwing away 3 garbage bags full of clothes and 5 large toys that were destroyed. While she was doing this I picked up the living room, did laundry, and put up 5 loads of laundry. Once again I refused to put up her laundry so instead I just moved it from there where it has been folded on the chairs since I folded then and put them there 4 months ago. I put them in her computer chair. Now she has those clothes plus the clothes in the laundry baskets on the bedroom floor that have been there for 8 months in a pile unfolded. I heard her enter the bedroom and make a comment about being happy that the chairs were clear until she realized I hadn't actually put up her laundry and just moved them. I then cooked supper but had to put up some groceries that she had gotten earlier and placed on the stove.
12/19/22
I woke up this morning to a question from my wife about a bag of treats that she said I put up from the kitchen table. I told her I hadn't seen them. She told me I shouldn't have put up the groceries the previous night and how I didn't put anything up from the table, just the groceries that were on the stove. She began to say she misspoke and meant the stove. She got angry and started to mock my answers. She was still angry and we got ready to leave for work. She started to walk past me out the door and I made kissy noises for a goodbye kiss. She got mad at me for that. We left for work and I got back in time to thaw something for supper. Around 5:50 she called me to tell me she was on the way home, which I thought was a little late but she had to stop at the store. I cooked sloppy joes for supper and the kids ate well. After supper I played a little bit on the computer with my ochild. I heard her looking for the kids special Christmas PJ’s for polar express day the next day at school. She was frantically looking for them and getting angry at me because I did the laundry last (haha like she has done it in a while) and didn't know where they were. I heard her in my ochilds room digging through his closet. I heard her ask him where they were and he said he didn't know daddy did the laundry last. She then said she knows “that's why shit gets lost.” It was very hurtful, disrespectful, and derogatory to say something like that, especially in front of my child and have him participate in the conversation. I helped look for them and found them under my ochilds pillows on his bed. There was no apology or any thankfulness when I found them. Later after I got the kids to bed my wife came and sat on her side of the couch using her phone and laptop. She muttered something about ‘that sounds about right.” I asked if she was talking to me and before I could finish “or was she talking to herself about a text” she answered me with a very angry look on her face and a very hurtful tone that “not everything is about you.” I was obviously very hurt by this so I got up to fill up on water and went to bed. She started to tell me it was a text from her mom about her dad but stopped talking when I was checking locks. She got irritated and refused to elaborate. I went to bed and refused to kiss her or tell her goodnight. This was not a very good day.
12/24/22
Christmas Eve. Wife and MIl went to town today for many hours, leaving me and my FIL home alone. I asked if he would be interested in 1883 since he had heard of it from one of his hands. He said yes and we started watching it. We were probably on episode 5-6 when they returned. I had checked several time if he wanted to keep watching it and he said yes. Wife and MIL returned around episode 6-7. SIL and BIl some over at about episode 7-8 and SIL asked him if he liked it. I didn't hear him but I was told he said it was fine, had a lot of action but sometimes felt like watching paint dry. After several more times of asking if he was ok watching the show he replied we went this far might as well watch it. MIL made several biting comments about wanting to watch something else. I find this funny because she never complains when he controls the TV at his house unless it is behind his back. She doesn't have the same limitations with me. I respected his wishes and continued to the end. After the show ended MIL cornered me in the hallway berating me for watching that show and trapping him all day watching it, saying that he didn't want to watch that show. I returned to the living room and asked him if he liked the show or was bothered by finishing the season. He said no and asked me why I asked. I said I just wanted to make sure.
12/25/22
Christmas day. After yesterday I was eager to finish this weekend but I am glad the kids had such a good time.
12/27/22
Today I had my 1st meeting with my new therapist. We went over some reasons why I was seeking a divorce and what/when to tell the kids. He did encourage me to speak to my wife about separating rather than filing prior like my lawyer suggested.
12/29/22
Tonight my wife confronted me about the use of towels to clean myself off after taking care of myself when I sleep alone. She mentioned how we hadn't had sex in 13 months. Which is hard to do when you are never alone together. I mentioned this and she talked about one time we had 4 days sleeping alone together when we took the kids to the inlaws a few months ago. I told her she didn't try anything either and I was tired of asking after being rejected for the past 7 years. We argued some more and eventually she got angry and started to leave. I then suggested that maybe we should discuss separating. She returned and asked me if that is what I wanted. I said yes and she got very angry and started yelling at me. She eventually left and went to sit on the couch for about 30 min. She eventually returned and we had a heart to heart. I told her all of the things that I was resentful about and she argued with me on every point. She seemed incredulous about splitting custody with the kids. Exclaiming how I wouldn't be able to afford living alone while paying child support. I asked for 50/50 saying did she just want me to become a weekend dad and she was upset at having to switch the kids every week. Eventually the kids woke up and came into the bedroom. She started talking in terms that my son could understand saying that everything is going to change and not for the good. My son can be very emotional and he started to cry. We couldn't get the kids to bed and eventually she lost it and started hitting herself in the head with a brush and then went to the bedroom door and started shaking it violently and I am not sure if she hit herself in the head with it. She left the room and I layed down with the kids to calm them. She eventually returned and we spoke amicably and she asked me to give us a chance and attend couples counseling. I agreed and she went to lay down with the kids.
I am so thankful I recorded it.
12/30/22
Today my wife spent the day with her sister and our kids at the zoo. She didn't get back until almost midnight and we didn't get a chance to talk. She went to sleep with the kids.
12/31/22
This morning my wife and I had a discussion. She admitted to almost everything that I said to her the other night. Saying that she was sorry and that she is going to try and not yell at me anymore or criticize me when I do the housework and it is not up to her standards. I am still skeptical but I am willing to see how things go.
Next Entry Jan 2023

Leia Organa was a great many things, depending on the setting.
To the rebellion, she was a General. A leader who'd run countless operations for Intelligence and other divisions. She was someone who'd served The Alliance diligently since her days as a spy in the Imperial senate. And to the nascent New Republic, she was a politician. Someone who would lead in a different way, and begin the long overdue process of rebuilding. Someone who would champion the rights and lives of people, and work to make those lives better.
But to those who remained of her people, Leia Organa was a princess.
As the last survivor of Alderaan's royalty, Leia was the keeper of her world's culture, history and traditions. To the remaining Alderaanians, she was not merely a leader, but also a symbol and a beacon that'd rallied them from across the stars towards a new home in the colony of New Alderaan on Dantooine. And Leia didn't miss the symbolism of the choice.
A world primarily covered in grasslands, lakes and rivers; what Dantooine lacked in Alderaan's once-famous mountain ranges, it made up for with its pleasant nature and fertile soil. How the planet avoided being turned into an agriworld for so long, Leia didn't know. But she certainly wasn't complaining.
The population of Dantooine had always been small, consisting mainly of single-family settlements and small communities. Hence why the colony of New Alderaan, built at the site of the rebellion's long-gone temporary base, had quickly become the largest settlement on the planet by far. The colony consisted of a beautiful city that incorporated every aspect of Alderaanian architecture, with several farms surrounding its outskirts. Said farms focused especially on the now-rare Alderaanian cattle and crops, to say nothing of the preservation centers dedicated to restoring Alderaanian flora and fauna in every way available.
Her people had wanted to crown her as Queen in place of her late mother, but Leia had declined. For as Queen, she would have to dedicate herself fully to New Alderaan, and Leia knew that she wouldn't be able to do that for a very long time. Although she didn't miss the irony of both her mothers holding the title of Queen at some point.
Nevertheless, today was an important day for the survivors or Alderaan.
Leia sat in the chamber she'd been assigned as a dressing room in New Alderaan's great hall, the white dress she wore practically gleaming. She'd chosen the same one she'd worn for the celebration on Yavin IV all those years ago, on the day where she'd presented those medals to the two men who would go on to become the most important people in her life. It was a day both deeply painful and hopeful. A day on which she lost and gained almost everything in her life.
"If you're nervous, remember that Han is probably producing enough sweat to fill Mon Cala's oceans." Her maid-of-honor quipped, almost finished with her hair. Leia chuckled and did her best to keep her head still. She and her oldest friend had settled on her wearing her hair down, with some Alderaanian flowers embedded into its curls and small braids.
"I'm not nervous, Winter." The Princess said. "Although I'm certain Chewie is barely keeping him from freaking out."
"Can't say I blame him." Her old friend said with a grin. "The Princess and The Scoundrel. Almost feels out of a bedtime story."
Leia's smile turned bittersweet. Her life was certainly no fairytale, nor had she ever been a storybook Princess. Back when they were kids, people would often mistake Winter for the princess because of her natural grace and poise, which contrasted Leia's somewhat cantankerous personality. Her antics had given everyone hell for a long time back then, creating numerous amusing memories that she currently cherished.
The door to the room opened, admitting Evaan Verlaine. A tall, blonde Alderaanian pilot, Verlaine was both a decorated hero of Yavin and a close friend. "Everything is set, your highness. And I'm telling you this now before anything starts: If Solo ever does something you don't like, come to me."
Leia turned to face Verlaine just as Winter finished. "I think Chewbacca already has that covered, but I appreciate the offer..." The Princess said, noting the highly unusual sight that was Evaan in a dress. Although she wore the bright yellow garment well, Leia suspected that her friend didn't entirely enjoy her current attire.
Everything felt suffocating to Han, from the decently-sized dressing room, to the fancy suit he didn't feel comfortable in. Even Chewie's reassuring hands on his shoulders weren't much of a help.
It was happening. It was really, truly happening. The most amazing woman in the Galaxy was about to become his wife, and he couldn't be more scared. He'd faced Darth Vader, torture and the full might of the Empire, but today was somehow the most scared he'd ever been.
"I haven't seen you like that since the job on Denon." Lando said with his trademark suaveness, seeing through Han's evidently unconvincing calm. "Don't worry. I'm sure Leia's more reasonable than Sana."
Normally, Han would've had a scathing reply to his old friend's joke, but his mind was simply not functioning normally at the moment. He was terrified and knew why. He was afraid of not being good enough a husband or a father. Of messing things up. But he was also done letting those fears stop him.
He loved Leia. More than he loved anyone or nothing in his entire life. And he would do his damndest to be the man she deserved.
The door opened to admit the young man who would soon be his brother-in-law. "Looking great, Luke." Lando said. And coming from the most fashionable man in the rebellion, that meant a lot. By that point, Han had given up on counting how many capes Lando had.
"Thanks, Lando." Luke said cheerily "How's the groom doing?"
Lando chuckled, "Exactly as expected."
"That bad, huh?"
"Are you two going to do something useful, or should I have Chewie show you the door?"
Lando showed his palms. "Easy, old pal. We're just trying to cheer you up. You know it's normal to be stressed on your big day."
Han snorted. "As if you would ever know."
Lando chuckled again. "You got me. It'll be a dark day before anyone tied this old scoundrel down. I'd never have it in me to leave behind so many broken hearts."
Han finally smiled. "Always loved your modesty, old pal."
Not that the Corellian didn't know his share of women in the days since leaving Corellia. But aside from Leia, he had only over loved one woman, and that bond hadn't ended the way he hoped at all. Thankfully, Leia and Q'ira couldn't be more different.
"There's nothing to fear, Han." Luke said, seeing through his facade as usual. "No one and nothing makes Leia happy more than you do. And you're both no longer the people I met all those years ago. You're made for each other now."
Somehow, Luke's words seemed to get to him, pacifying his raging mind. "You're not using the force to calm me down, are you?" the former smuggler asked jokingly.
Luke smirked. "I would only do that as a last resort. And only because Leia would kill us all if the wedding doesn't go as planned."
The ballroom of the Great Hall had a beige-and-sky-blue color scheme that worked well with the natural light passing through the skylight. The chamber had been hastily modified by adding a central podium and wide seats arranged in concentric circles to accommodate the guests. A part of the Alderaanian traditions, this arrangement was done to evoke the oneness of the union.
Luke stood behind the groom, alongside Chewbacca and Lando. The Wookiee's fur was surprisingly well-groomed, and Lando looked as dashing as ever in his dark blue suit and cape. Luke had opted for a simple black suit with a white tunic underneath, not unlike the one he wore at Ktath'atn. Although that wasn't a memory he wanted to relive at the moment.
The ceremonies, both Alderaanian and Corellian, were nearly finished by now. The Wedding was being officiated by a pontifex of the Brotherhood of Cognizance, a monastic order of the Naboo faith system. The elderly man had been sent by the Queen of Naboo herself at Leia's request, and she'd told Luke that it was her way of honoring their mother on their special day.
Behind Leia, stood three of her closest friends: her childhood friend Winter Retrac, pilot Evaan Verlaine and smuggler Sana Starros. Luke didn't miss the irony of Sana's presence, given the fact that she had once been briefly involved with Han herself. All three women looked beautiful, but none more so than his sister. And Luke suspected that the sheer joy he sensed from her contributed to her breathtaking beauty today.
And as he looked at his sister and the man who was like a brother to him, Luke saw their future. Not through The Force, but through the love they all shared.
Their path wouldn't be easy, because nothing worth it was ever easy. They were both beings of fire, with heads that could be as hard as solid rock. But they loved each other deeply. And no matter the spats and arguments, they will always find their way back to each other at the end of the day.
It was a rather simple wedding, considering it was for a Princess. But it had nearly everyone from their remaining loved ones, and that was what truly mattered. Nevertheless, there were many people they wished could be there. People who had become one with The Force a long time ago.
Luke frowned as a strange expression crossed Leia's face for a moment, but it softened again as a bittersweet smile crossed it. Following her line of sight, Luke found himself adapting a similar smile.
For in one corner of the room, handsome and bright, stood their father with a grin on his face.

Okay, it's not a new theory or even that exciting, I just have been struggling to make the Kaylor timeline make sense in my head, and I think I've figured out what I think happened.
So, I agree with the people who think that Rep is about Karlie, and Taylor and Karlie broke up sometime in between Rep and Lover. Lover is actually a breakup album in disguise. I think Taylor planned to make Lover her coming out album, and she wanted Karlie to come out with her, and maybe even wanted to take it further and get married. But Karlie, who was with that Kushner (idk if I really think it's a bearding situation or not, but I think it's more than likely contractual than love between them), wasn't as all in. I think that Kushner ultimately decided he stood to benefit more if Karlie married him and stayed in the closet, and in the end, that's what she chose (hence, Taylor saying, "I wouldn't marry me either," "lose something, babe, risk something," etc.).
I think Joe and Taylor initially were going to be each other's beards; I think they're both bi. But when things with Karlie fell apart, I think Joe developed feelings for Taylor, and I think she started to reciprocate. That wasn't part of the initial plan, but there was always the potential for attraction between them, and it happened ("we were supposed to be just friends"). But I think Joe always had stronger feelings for Taylor than she did for him, and of course, she hadn't really fully gotten over Karlie (and maybe still hasn't). I think she always sort of held Joe at arm's distance (think Afterglow-style). And when Joe wanted to take things further, maybe even get married, she realized that wasn't really what she wanted (Lavender Haze, Champagne Problems, etc etc). And maybe she has rekindled things with Karlie - I'm not really fully on board with LSK, but who knows. And we all know that Taylor is not above cheating. And I think there might actually be a kernel of truth in the narrative that Joe couldn't handle her level of fame. So, for a lot of reasons, I think things between Taylor and Joe didn't work out because they were doomed from the start. It was never supposed to be real anyway.
Thanks for reading this if you did, it's not a big insight or anything I just kind of wanted to sort out my thoughts here and see what y'all think as well.

So, I started diving into faith and deeper stuff due to a Reddit post meme-ing about the Lesser and the Greater Keys of Solomon.
I read about it for a while, but I wasn't interested. I had plenty of advice by demonolaters and occult practitioners; with time I got a greater perspective of faith and spirituality.
I think that there is (mostly) nothing wrong for divination and such as long as you have conviction and do it to reach a deeper bond with God (Romans 12-14), I myself practiced with tarot for a while (being cautious) and it helped me develop a ton (I always asked God and ended up seeing it as a form of extended prayer).
Furthermore, most of the things that nowadays are sin, are manmade, since Jesus just gave us two rules, which are also taught by St. Augustine (who was a bibliomancer himself), and everything outside that, maybe doesn't come from God but men desiring power.
I've lost faith in the Church as an institution; it's utterly corrupted, but I think most of the priests and friars try their best to carry on.
There is a big conflict between traditionalists and new age, and I simple view it as two ways of loving God, since those two have been (and are) corrupted during the ages.
Nowadays my faith is just simpler, I kinda took up seriously Kempis' "Imitation of Christ", and despite the theological questions I have to answer yet (which may not be that important at the end of the day), I find myself happier, I picked up my cross, despite yelling about it from time to time, and sure the yoke became way lighter.
I think that faith isn't bonded with a structure nor specific rituals (besides baptism) and that we have to develop our relationship with God through introspection, prayer and consistent changes over the time.
I try my best to help other people, to love my family and friends, to be the best person possible, even when I tend to fail more often than not. And there is where I found some sort of "inner peace" and came to terms with my faith.
I remember a friar who told me my spiritual development was stuck due to me having a girlfriend and sleeping together before marriage (life circumstances don't let us be together just yet), and I felt overwhelmed, scared about God being a force of nature able to smite me if I did something He didn't like (which may be true to some extent, don't get me wrong), that pulled me out of my faith and was the main reason I began to be interested in the occult.
I do not think any of it is necessary, like, the foresight, the summoning, etc; we just do those things (mostly) because we have fear, because we are weak and unable to ask God for mercy an strength to overcome the obstacles we face.
So, this is my spot as a christian now (if I can still be called a christian); we get closer to God not by following man-made rules and strict conduct patterns, instead, we do so by being kind, by loving each other, praying, accepting the cross and becoming kind, rejecting anger and hate.
Feel free to give me advice or just your take about my opinion.
Thank you so much for reading me; may the Lord bless you and the sun warm your face.

TL;DR: My friendship feels strained because his girlfriend is uncomfortable with my polyamory.
My best friend (19M) of 6 years and I are both freshman in university—he knew I was poly since my freshman year of high school (my parents are in a polycule so I had a healthy model growing up). It was never an issue up until he entered a new relationship with a girl he met through a friend of his.
Last night he informed me she felt threatened by me because it’s a “weird coincidence that [he’s] best friends with someone who falls in love with every breathing thing.” We used to be friends with benefits, and I did grow feelings at one point (not because of the sex), but that doesn’t mean I disrespect boundaries. I honestly had no issue with their relationship until I felt my existence as a polyamorous person was a liability. My friend knows my feelings for him have dissipated, and I have no problem ceasing sexual activity with him when he’s in a relationship.
Unfortunately we haven’t talked much since that conversation. AFAIK he’s still together with his girlfriend, but a mutual friend of ours mentioned the rumors about me have got a few of the girlfriend’s friends worried about their dating prospects because of me.
Has anyone else experienced similar? If so, how did you manage or cope? Thanks in advance.

So, this is a long story.
I grew up in a third world country that is current ruled by a socialist-communist dictator, so it is very much not a good place to be in.
My younger brother (by 5 years) and I grew up with our mom and dad in said country. We got along well and mostly depended on our mother for emotional needs as our dad was mostly away for work, but when he was home the environment was tense. He's always been volatile and would get upset over everything. I remember him yelling at my mother ever since I was young, and saw him hit her once. My mother threatened to leave after that and he didn't do it again, that I know of, but the yelling continued.
He started fighting with me when I was entering my teens. At first my mother would try to mediate, but our fights were enormous. I would challenge him a lot and he wouldn't know how to react, often saying "this is my house" "don't talk back at me" and when he was really losing am argument, he would threaten things like "say that again and I will smack you" which he would definitely follow through with. Sometimes he wouldn't even give a warning and I would end up hit with a belt, or broomstick, or hanging hook, or whatever was withing reach. Once I apparently annoyed him when he was hanging a picture frame and he smashed it on my head. He thought that was funny and still brings it up as a joke when he sees the picture (that he kept, without the glass).
My mother stopped mediating, I feel, because of how often my father and I would fight. Oftentimes after my dad and I stopped foghting, she would have a conversation with him that ended up with him monologuing/yelling at her. The next day he would tell me it was my fault he had a fight with mom which would trigger another argument between him and me.
This went on and off for years, but as I got older I learned to choose my fights. My brother on the other hand learned by watching me and avoided everything. He would just absentmindedly nod along to whatever dad was asking of him and meekly complied and then did whatever he wanted when dad was distracted.
I should say my brother grew up babies by both my parents and didn't have to do much of the household chores, which mostly fell to me. These were one of the few reasons my father would pick fights with me, because I didn't do them fast enough or I wouldn't drop what I was doing to immediately do the chore he wanted me to do. I always reminded both him and my mother that my brother was also a part of the household, and that by his age I was taking care of many things. They would always reply with, "you're the oldest, so you get to do it" and that was it.
Another point of contingency was money. We were technic middle class but living in a socialist-communist country changes that very quickly. Both my parents worked and they still struggled to cover all the bases. We never lacked anything important. We always had food, electricity, water, a roof, and schools paid. We didn't go on vacation often, but that was ok. However, my father didn't like not having money for other things. There was always something, according to him. Fixing the car (that somehow ALWAYS needed something new fixed), or paying off somebody to fix something in the house, or buying a new whatever for the house, etc. Then I started working and saving money for my own things. My dad was out of the house often and didn't know I started working. I had a laptop, and often gave some tutoring or wrote some papers or anything that a young teen could do to earn a bit of income 15+ years ago. My mom knew I was saving money to buy a handheld console (I never owned one). One day we were out and I let slip in front of my dad that I needed to use my savings to fix my laptop, as it was no longer starting and it was my sources of income. My father blew up and demanded to know why I was "withholding" money from the family for a stupid laptop, when they had bills to pay and things that needed fixing, and said I was selfish and spoiled. My mother defended me on this, which made my father storm off and not talk to us for the rest of the day, only for him to tell me later, in a much sweeter tone, how I was a good daughter and that he would appreciate my help with the house starting now. I'm sad to say I was an idiot and wanted to avoid more fights and just agreed.
Fast forwarding to the event that changed everything. My mother passed away in my mid twenties, my brother was barely 17-18 at the time. She'd been fighting organ failure for months at that point, and the whole family was worn out. I was having constant blowouts with my dad, I tried leaving the house on several occasions because I was having suicidal thoughts, my brother had withdrawn into himself and videogames and my mother was literally telling me to my face that she wanted to die.
Before she passed she tried mending what little relationship I had left with my dad. It sort of happened when she passed. Her death brought us together in our grief. Both my brother and my father turned to me for emotional comfort. I had almost graduated college and was already working so I took over the maintenance of the house and groceries and bills (dad left his job to take care of mom in the last months). So we didn't have time or the energy to fight. Grieving allowed us to bond over mom, talking about her etc. And i sort of had a relationship with my dad again. He'd take care of the house and drive my and my brother around, and I would pay for everything.
Everything came to a head when not a year later my father was seeing someone closer to my age than to his.
I was disgusted to say the least. I fought him tooth and nail on that, as he would often buy her (and her FOUR KIDS) presents with MY money. He would go on trips with her with MY money. So of course I wasn't happy. I also felt he got over my mother (they were together for 23 years) surprisingly fast, and my brother and I were very much still mourning her. My brother didn't care much and would try to calm me down and serve as a wall between me and my dad when my father got fed up with me criticizing his relationship and would attempt to hit me. (Dad never bit my brother).
My brother would say that relationship wouldn't last. I should have listened because it truly didn't. Of course no one would tolerate my dad that long.
So he was alone. And he would complain about it often. He liked (likes) to think of a family member of his. A distant uncle abandoned by his wife and children to die in a dilapidated apartment. He'd say that the children were cruel and thankless to their poor father and would "jokingly" say he hoped we (my brother and I) wouldn't do that to him because he loved us oh so much. Eventually we started fighting like before again.
This is getting way too long so I'll wrap it up.
Eventually I managed to leave the country and now live on the other side of the world. I couldn't bring my brother along with me because I literally arrived with the clothes on my back and a barely-there job opportunity. My brother still lives with our dad and I send money to them every month. My brother is now working to support himself and my dad while he graduates. However, while I lived with them I was the sole focus of my dad's rage. Now it was just him and my brother so he now had a new target.
He's making my brother's life miserable. He interferes in his relationshis, yells at him in front if friends and his girlfriend, undermines him, mocks him, love bombs him, insults him, and the list goes on. Everything he did to me he is now doing to my brother and I feel guilty that I can't get him out faster. I'm saving money to be able to support him here and bring him as soon as he graduates, but even after everything he feels guilty about making my father's fear real. Leaving him alone to his own luck in that third world country when he doesn't even have a job anymore.
I couldn't care less. I barely have a relationship with our father anymore. But it got me thinking. Maybe I'm being too harsh in abandoning him like that. He did provide for us and in his own way, loved us. I'm starting to feel guilty, but I needed to vent somewhere.
Sorry it was so long, but I needed to list the major points. There is more if anybody is interested.